trace logs of the heart

Apr 2026

Every almost-text: a poem.

Apr 2026re:A Manifesto at Nineteen

I'm all leaky. One moment: designing corsets. The next: fuck, I don’t want sketches where a life used to be.

Apr 2026re:Thinking HandsThe Eye that Catches the Dream

i've built entire cathedrals inside my head

Apr 2026Aal Izz Well

bff: please stop building
me: can't, i’ve built several for X 😩
bff: 💀 then build one for someone else. Y?
me: no, there's only a tent
bff: right, a tent today, a hut tomorrow, then a house, a manor, a ✨cathedral✨

Apr 2026

thought it was clinical depression, turns out it was taxes

Apr 2026

swaggy

Apr 2026

Overheard the word “ostensibly” today. A tripwire. It was, to me, your word.

Apr 2026re:Thinking Hands

You pile up associations the way you pile up bricks. Memory itself is a form of architecture.
— Louise Bourgeois

Mar 2026

savoring old heartbreaks like dark choc

Apr 2026

soul-sick, overindulging

Mar 2026

No crisis. Just a question of vectors.

Mar 2026

I'd forgotten how much I adore Wilde and his darling, decadent characters.

Now, my dear Tuppy, don’t be led astray into the paths of virtue. Reformed, you would be perfectly tedious.

Mar 2026

So much longing, still. Must be the darn moody boi playlist.

Mar 2026

Explaining Relativity by Rebecca Elson

Mar 2026

My Life Was the Size of My Life by Jane Hirshfield

Apr 2026re:If I didn't care for obfuscation

For a moment, he had me reaching for more.
But my appetite shall keep its own measure:
not stretched beyond itself,
not shamed into smallness.

Mar 2026re:To you who explains magic

I, too, know how to evaluate posteriors. 😏

Mar 2026

what a word: besotted

Mar 2026

Care. Be fascinated. Chase ideas down shorelines.

Mar 2026

Pay attention.
Be astonished.
Tell about it.
— Mary Oliver, Sometimes

Mar 2026re:You Do Not Have to Be Good

Lost on You on repeat. Fuck. I will grow my forest.

Mar 2026re:You Do Not Have to Be Good

git commit -m "wip: debugging memory, still leaking"

Mar 2026re:You Do Not Have to Be Good

I shall be an imposing walrus.

Mar 2026re:To you who explains magicYou Do Not Have to Be Good

why optimize life away?

Mar 2026

Still, what I want in my life
is to be willing
to be dazzled—
to cast aside the weight of facts
— Mary Oliver, The Ponds

Mar 2026re:You Do Not Have to Be Good

Sparked by and written to:

And I'll probably crash your stupid car
And make your life a misery
— Olivia Dean, Nice to Each Other

Feb 2026re:If I didn't care for obfuscation

~vItAlItY~

Feb 2026re:If I didn't care for obfuscation

{ Hot & Idling }
A wanting machine,
overheated, idling.
What am I to do
with all this wanting?

Feb 2026

I love cages / left wide open
— Todd Dillard, How to Live

Jan 2026re:If I didn't care for obfuscation

All that Wanting, Right? by Devin Kelly

Jan 2026

meet me at midnight
espressos, epiphanies
borrowed, past due
meet me again
in slanted light
undone

Jan 2026

meet me as monsoon
all poetics and blueprints
meet me as slow drip
forty-seven days
half a cup

Jan 2026

guilty pleasure:
plunge-chasing other selves
reinvention on impact

from bedrock:
gnarled limbs clawing
the moon unblinking

Jan 2026

wanna write poems, not papers

Dec 2025

If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances. I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.
— Nadine Stair

Dec 2025

how seductive: our minds misbehaving together

Dec 2025

Be my witness to beauty,
my eye for the sublime.

Dec 2025

The Third Thing by Donald Hall

Jan 2026

Attention is the beginning of devotion.
— Mary Oliver, Upstream

Dec 2025

me: metaphors
you: abstractions
us:

Dec 2025

my mind makes metaphors of men

Dec 2025

All this meaning-making,
yet my hands close on air.

Apr 2026

proved every lemma
you, my limit point
still no theorem

Nov 2025re:To you who explains magic

How poetic, these expositions, speaking in burls & blossoms:
"Every twig X in a cubic bridgeless graph G is a burl."

Nov 2025

post demo texts to self:
it's crazy
i feel so large
or maybe it's the world
life is full of possibilities
hadn’t he said that
i feel it now
to my bones
i have taste
just need to hear it
i’m on the cusp
of something
a realization
a knowing
beautiful
delicate
but so beautiful

Nov 2025re:Drama Queen

Because I knew you
I have been changed for good
— Chenoweth & Menzel, For Good

Nov 2025

"Imagine your life unfurling once you’ve rid yourself of all that shame."

Nov 2025re:Drama Queen

*pushes emotional glut to prod*

Nov 2025

windows bolted,
passages sealed,
the only way out
was to leave

Nov 2025re:Concept of You

for a moment, i experienced cinematic magic

Apr 2024

i had to—
grieve, i mean.
all those wasted years.
all these wasted tears.

Apr 2024

don't let me miss this late-night yapping

Mar 2025

coding, crying, stargazing

Feb 2025

it’s about time I fell in love

Jan 2025

missing, undefined

Sep 2024

for heaven’s sake, fix the crap out of extrinsic sadness

Aug 2024

tired of all these physical parts

Aug 2024

fresh out of fucks forever
— Lana Del Rey, Venice Bitch

Jul 2024

just like that
a spark of an idea—
sleepless for the night

Jul 2024

me: a frankenstein of yous

Jul 2024

in aarhus and not missing music

Jun 2024

this sadness—
where does it go?
it gathers
it grows

Jun 2024

every place
same end
me

Jun 2024

loved fast, wholly, then not at all

Jun 2024

living: a life sentence

Jun 2024

holding hands:
flesh & bones
interlocking

Jun 2024

A beginning ended.

Jun 2024

lungs swollen with grief not mine to breathe

Jun 2024re:That Summer (24 in SF)Beauty

i fear that some tremendous beauty is lost on me

May 2024

longing for sunburn,
for shirt against skin
scorching

May 2024

paint pictures of patterns of words

Mar 2026

and so i did

Feb 2024

and so i couched and dreamed for hours

Mar 2024

dreaming in progress

Nov 2023

There's things I wanna say to you
But I'll just let you live
Like if you hold me without hurting me
You'll be the first who ever did
— Lana Del Rey, Cinnamon Girl

Nov 2023

they linger—
snapshots stretched
into space-filling curves